I Want To Punch My Own Face In

Yesterday, I wanted to punch my own face in.  I have this wonderful friend, we'll call her Cheryl to protect her identity, because, the name Cheryl sounds nothing like, Tanya, which is her real name...oops. 

So yesterday I was talking about what's been going on with moi (pardon my French) and we got into me quitting my job and how Law Of Attraction allowed me to do that. Now understand, I TOTALLY get that not everyone is on board with this whole LOA thang and I'm not here to convince anyone, because I myself still have this kernel of "come on, it can't be this easy" doubt.  So anyway, I said to Tanya, "I want to convince you to quit your 'money' job too." And she said, "I can't, I don't have a financial cushion, like you do Julie". So I was like, "that doesn't matter" and THAT is when I wanted to punch my face in.  

What a sh*t stain way for me to respond. I shoulda just said, "I get ya girlie", and then given her a huge tongue kiss, but then SHE woulda punched my face in (I mean, she likes me, but she doesn't like me like me.)  This morning I began thinking about our conversation and how Tanya and my circumstances seem different.  Yes, we do have some money in the bank that we got after selling our house in Boston. But this isn't money to be spent. This needs to go right back into a house. So, barring that money, we are (my husband says) working on a deficit. But as some hip hop singer said, "I ain't tryin' to hear dat". I'm trying to feel abundant, blah, blah, freaking blah. But, cushion or no cushion, deficit or no deficit, none of that is supposed to matter if one is living LOA. It's all about belief. What one believes is what's important. Not "reality", but "vibrational reality".

Maybe Tanya doesn't have a  "cushion" of money, but, I think she's way more talented than me and THAT's money in the bank as far as I'm concerned. Talent is a huge, fat very comfy, fluffy, brocade cushion.  I guess the difference betwixt she and I is that I believe I can afford to quit my job to pursue my dream. I just need to vibrate my way into more money, writing jobs, acting in porn, etc., right? RIGHT? I don't know.

As of today this YOLJ project is still new and maybe I'm on what they call in AA a 'Pink Cloud'. I'm reveling in not having to go clean houses and excited about blogging and  finding it easy (way easier than ever before) to have fun focusing on my dream life. My question is, will this last? Time will tell. It sure FEELS like good things, positive, hopeful things are happening faster than ever. The question is, am I responsible for this or is it just coincidence?  LOA say's I AM responsible, that it's a direct result of my living joyfully and focusing. My job was holding me in a place of "non-allowance" and now the job is gone, therefore the resistance is gone and I'm able to allow what I want to come to me. The mere fact that I've been deliberately sending out positive vibrations is responsible, that like attracts like (as in a magnet) and so the more positive vibes I send out, the more come back to me. Abraham say's "You are the vibrational writers of the script of your life."  Am I beating this poor deceased horse into glue yet?

So my question is, can Tanya do this too? Does it matter that she's in a different place financially than we are?  LOA say's no. But again, can it really be that easy?  I guess that is EXACTLY why I'm doing this whole experiment.  I quit my job so you don't have to.