So my husband has been on the computer everyday for the past week trying to find the best deal on plane tickets for our flight to Boston. I want the best price as well. So I need to 'vibrate' my way into getting what I want, right? How do I do that? How I understand it is, I have to not worry about the price, so I'm not fighting 'against' what I want.
L.O.A. says that our economy is just an exchange of energy. So I'm trying to think of money as energy. It's like air, you breath in and breath out. When you exercise, you take in more air, but you don't think, uh oh, I better conserve the air, because there might not be enough. You just accept there will be enough, therefore there is enough. They say that money is the same thing. I choose to believe this. It feels better to think that money is unlimited and I want to feel better (yes, my head is in the clouds).
So Chip (my husband) finally acquiesced and paid what he thinks is too much for the tickets and he's pissed. I need to not let his attitude effect how I feel about money. I choose to believe that it's of no consequence how much the tickets are. We always have enough money, money comes when we need it, it always has. Chip feels 'the lack of' money and I want to feel the abundance of money. Okay, I'm still working on it, I go in and out. I have to remember not use his thinking be my excuse to feel bad about money. It ain't easy, to be sure. But that's what this year is about. It's about choosing to feel better. I choose to believe that the price of stuff doesn't matter, that we can afford what we THINK we can afford and that we are now, already abundant.
Right now, I'm going to do something that makes me feel better so I'm going to go on Animalsbeingdicks.com. It's hilarious!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I Quit My Job So You Don't Have To
I started thinking, what do I want to accomplish with this blog? I want to document my life and experiences for one year using the tools given in the Abraham Hicks publications as well as Think And Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. Basically I will be using the Law Of Attraction to attract what I want in my life.
I believe (Okay, 'Hope' is probably more accurate) that by just living joyously I will attract my dream job (not a job dreaming, although that would be cool) but the job I've always dreamed of (except that one time when I dreamed I was waiting tables wearing a robot costume and all the people I was serving weren't people but dolphins and they kept complaining that the tuna fish wasn't 'people safe'). Anyway, I digress. So by living joyously (L.J.) I will attract my dream job, dream house and dream bank account.
"Hey Perkins, what the deuce does it mean to live joyously?" You ask? I say to you, STOP WITH ALL THE QUESTIONS! Oh wait, sorry. No, that's a perfectly legit question I pretended that you asked me. I'm not exactly sure what it means. All I'm going to try and do is to feel grateful as often as I can. Feel abundance instead of "the lack of" and to do activities that I like more and try and minimize the activities I don't like. AND when I have to do more unpleasant activities I will try and find the joy in each moment that I'm doing it. It's about Feeling Better and by doing these things LOA say's that intuitive thoughts will spontaneously arise as to what the next right thing for me to do is (they better or I'll be so wicked pissed!).
The aforementioned books give tools as to how to go about feeling better. I will use those tools and let you know how it goes. And when at the end of the year I'm knocking at your door without a home and penniless and I'm babbling something about ,"my life went to poo one year ago", then you can all say, "Oh so that's what happens when you quit your job and try and live joyously for one year! See? I'm going to quit MY job so you don't have to! You're welcome.
I believe (Okay, 'Hope' is probably more accurate) that by just living joyously I will attract my dream job (not a job dreaming, although that would be cool) but the job I've always dreamed of (except that one time when I dreamed I was waiting tables wearing a robot costume and all the people I was serving weren't people but dolphins and they kept complaining that the tuna fish wasn't 'people safe'). Anyway, I digress. So by living joyously (L.J.) I will attract my dream job, dream house and dream bank account.
"Hey Perkins, what the deuce does it mean to live joyously?" You ask? I say to you, STOP WITH ALL THE QUESTIONS! Oh wait, sorry. No, that's a perfectly legit question I pretended that you asked me. I'm not exactly sure what it means. All I'm going to try and do is to feel grateful as often as I can. Feel abundance instead of "the lack of" and to do activities that I like more and try and minimize the activities I don't like. AND when I have to do more unpleasant activities I will try and find the joy in each moment that I'm doing it. It's about Feeling Better and by doing these things LOA say's that intuitive thoughts will spontaneously arise as to what the next right thing for me to do is (they better or I'll be so wicked pissed!).
The aforementioned books give tools as to how to go about feeling better. I will use those tools and let you know how it goes. And when at the end of the year I'm knocking at your door without a home and penniless and I'm babbling something about ,"my life went to poo one year ago", then you can all say, "Oh so that's what happens when you quit your job and try and live joyously for one year! See? I'm going to quit MY job so you don't have to! You're welcome.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Keeping My Head In The Clouds
I'm a political news junky. I listen everyday to political podcasts on my Ipod, while I clean, in the car and at the gym. Recently I've decided to cut way down on this. Instead now I listen to music or story-telling or fun interview shows. I totally recommend the Marc Maron podcast. The reason I've decided to cut way back on listening to politics is, as I'm sure you've guessed, because it doesn't always make me feel good, in fact most of the time it brings up feelings of fear and anxiety. "Feel & feelings" are the operative words here. L.O.A. says that I need to pay attention to how I feel. When I began doing that (listening to how I feel), I realized, listening to music or story-telling makes me I feel better, happier.
My husband says, "By ignoring the 'state of the world' aren't you just burying your head in the sand?". Yep. Actually a better way of putting it is, I'm putting my head in the clouds. I'm deliberately choosing to feel better. It seems so simple, yet not always easy to do.
Keeping my head in the clouds. I met a woman who said t me "If I'm waiting in a long line at the Post Office, instead of getting annoyed, I look for things to appreciate. I see a woman's outfit I like. Or I look for a baby to appreciate". She deliberately chooses to look for better feeling thoughts. I'm gonna do that.
A quote from and Abraham-Hicks workshop, "the more you deliberately choose better-feeling thoughts, the more easy and ready access you will have to much better-feeling thoughts." They also say that, "like attracts like". So my thoughts are like a magnet. The more I feel good, then more thoughts will just appear that make me feel good. Okay, I'm on board. I'm gonna keep my head in the clouds as much as I can today. I'll let you know if there's a silver lining.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
I Farted At The Gym
Firstly, let me say "hey, hey, hey" to Jean, Carol and Ham, my three followers (that word is still weird to me).
So yeah, I farted at the gym and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to apologize for it. I'm only going to apologize for not apologizing. It was a little, you know, ppht, barely audible, well at least I thought so, because I was wearing my noise cancelling headphones, which brings up the question, if one farts and cannot hear it, did a tree fall in the forest? The answer is, there is no answer for such a deep philosophical question.
After I did it (blow-poo'd as the Irish say) I looked up and in the mirror, a dude on the machine next to me was looking at me smiling broadly. HEY! I can't help that he doesn't wear fart noise canceling headphones! I should've just laughed with him and said, "Mexican food", but no I walked away quickly, all embarrassed.
You're wondering, why is she bringing this up and what does this have to do with living joyously for goodness sakes? Well, I'll tell you. It was how I handled it. I was dishonest about it. Walking away. What I should have done, and what I will do in future (I eat a lot of Mexican.....FOOD! Not people, although I'm sure the Mexican people taste delicious!) what I will do in the future is stand proudly and yell, "YEP I FARTED, AREN'T I ADORABLY HUMAN?" and then after the staff has told me to leave, I can say, "THEY CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH" because I like to quote Jack Nicholson movies. And then I'd say to myself, "look at you Julie, being all honest and stuff, owning up to your humanness aren't you the shiznit?" And I'll answer, "yes, and don't forget adorable!".
What I'm finding out about myself through this blog thang, is, that I don't want to lie anymore. I feel like I cover "the truth" about myself with humor, if I joke about it, for instance if I say, "One thing I'm not proud of is my herpes. Don't get me wrong, I used to be, but now everyone I've slept with has them. It's just not cool anymore." (Oh did I mention I occasionally do stand up?) A person will think, ha! A joke! It's not real! But is it? Only me and my vagina know for sure...and my doctor, she knows. Okay, so I don't have herpes. The point is, if I did I'd want to be honest about it. Now, I almost wish I DID have herpes, so I could be honest about it, and you (my three followers) will be all, "wow, Julie is so honest, I admire that...and she's pretty adorable too".
My point is that, I'm going to try and not cover the truth in this blog. To be honest and forthright. I don't want to bog myself down trying to be funny writing this. It's about my experiences of trying to live joyfully and if I'm always worrying about, "is that funny?" Then it'll end up not being as joyful. Does that make sense?
So 'afore I go, one really joyful thing that happened yesterday was of course (if you've read the previous posts) The house we are interested in came down $80,000. The house was on the market 5 days! 5! So anyway, what my task now is, to keep thinking happy thoughts about living in that house. In reality the house is still above our price range, but the Laws Of Attraction say that is of no consequence. I just need to vibrate my way into it. The "manager" (The Universe) is taking care of it, so I don't have to. So that's what I'm doing ya'll, I'm vibrating. I know some of you are thinking, "whatever Perkins" and that's cool. But let's see what happens, shall we? I'm gonna go vibrate now.
So yeah, I farted at the gym and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to apologize for it. I'm only going to apologize for not apologizing. It was a little, you know, ppht, barely audible, well at least I thought so, because I was wearing my noise cancelling headphones, which brings up the question, if one farts and cannot hear it, did a tree fall in the forest? The answer is, there is no answer for such a deep philosophical question.
After I did it (blow-poo'd as the Irish say) I looked up and in the mirror, a dude on the machine next to me was looking at me smiling broadly. HEY! I can't help that he doesn't wear fart noise canceling headphones! I should've just laughed with him and said, "Mexican food", but no I walked away quickly, all embarrassed.
You're wondering, why is she bringing this up and what does this have to do with living joyously for goodness sakes? Well, I'll tell you. It was how I handled it. I was dishonest about it. Walking away. What I should have done, and what I will do in future (I eat a lot of Mexican.....FOOD! Not people, although I'm sure the Mexican people taste delicious!) what I will do in the future is stand proudly and yell, "YEP I FARTED, AREN'T I ADORABLY HUMAN?" and then after the staff has told me to leave, I can say, "THEY CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH" because I like to quote Jack Nicholson movies. And then I'd say to myself, "look at you Julie, being all honest and stuff, owning up to your humanness aren't you the shiznit?" And I'll answer, "yes, and don't forget adorable!".
What I'm finding out about myself through this blog thang, is, that I don't want to lie anymore. I feel like I cover "the truth" about myself with humor, if I joke about it, for instance if I say, "One thing I'm not proud of is my herpes. Don't get me wrong, I used to be, but now everyone I've slept with has them. It's just not cool anymore." (Oh did I mention I occasionally do stand up?) A person will think, ha! A joke! It's not real! But is it? Only me and my vagina know for sure...and my doctor, she knows. Okay, so I don't have herpes. The point is, if I did I'd want to be honest about it. Now, I almost wish I DID have herpes, so I could be honest about it, and you (my three followers) will be all, "wow, Julie is so honest, I admire that...and she's pretty adorable too".
My point is that, I'm going to try and not cover the truth in this blog. To be honest and forthright. I don't want to bog myself down trying to be funny writing this. It's about my experiences of trying to live joyfully and if I'm always worrying about, "is that funny?" Then it'll end up not being as joyful. Does that make sense?
So 'afore I go, one really joyful thing that happened yesterday was of course (if you've read the previous posts) The house we are interested in came down $80,000. The house was on the market 5 days! 5! So anyway, what my task now is, to keep thinking happy thoughts about living in that house. In reality the house is still above our price range, but the Laws Of Attraction say that is of no consequence. I just need to vibrate my way into it. The "manager" (The Universe) is taking care of it, so I don't have to. So that's what I'm doing ya'll, I'm vibrating. I know some of you are thinking, "whatever Perkins" and that's cool. But let's see what happens, shall we? I'm gonna go vibrate now.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Woke Up In A Panic Saying "What the 'H' did I do?"
First I'd like to say hello to JEAN! My first customer, what do you call someone who is following your blog? Follower? That sounds too cultish. How about my first 'disciple', yes that's much better, insert smirk face here. JEAN I will name my first born after you. HA! Joke's on you, there isn't gonna be any childrens coming outa these old dried up prunes for ovaries, no siree.
Secondly, as you can see, I changed the look of the blog, got rid of the TV, it was too confusing and I didn't want to futz around, so it's plain. Maybe someday when I get all computer savvy, I'll change it.
So yes, I woke up this morning thinking, "jeepers, why did I tell the world I'm a G.D. House Cleaner? WHY? (Okay not the world, but Jean...for now, the WORLD will be mine soon, yes you will! But don't worry WORLD, I'll take good care of you. I'll put you on my shelf and dust you once a week and give you water when you need it and I promise not too let my cat play with you. But I digress) I don't usually tell people, I'm a house cleaner. I usually say to people, "I'm a writer" or "I'm an actor" and whenever I say those two sentences i get a sick feeling in my stomach. I feel like a fraud. Why? I mean, I DO act and I DO write. I think it's because , when I hear someone say that I think "BORING another person who thinks they're an "actor" and a "writer" please spare me your silly dream".
Can one call themselves something that doesn't give them enough money to live on? After I tell a person, "I'm an actor/writer" I get, "so how do you make your money?" I usually scream, "Someone is behind you with a knife and they look like they mean business!" and when they turn around, I'm gone. When that fails, then I have to confess, "Um I have a house cleaning business" HA! "House cleaning business" what a load of crap. Seriously Julie? "business", I only say that too make myself sound more, what, important? HA!!! Important. Yes, I'm a high class cleaner, I use only green products and I'm almost fluent in English. I'm such an assh#$%le. I scrub peoples floors for money! I don't carry a brief case, I carry a mop. Yep. Whatevs. Well not no more, right? because that's what this blog is about, me changing all that? Me not cleaning anymore, but doing only what makes me feel good, right?
In Law of Attraction (L.O.A.) they say, "pay attention to your feelings". I am and right now I feel like poo. I'm all insecure about this blog and revealing too much of my stupid life (You'll forgive me, I'm trying not to swear. I'm a swearer, a bad swearer and I made a commitment to not swear in my blog). LOA says's "don't live in reality". That's wicked freaking hard, yo. So I want to be honest with ya'll, but I'm struggling with being honest and still trying to not live in reality. But this blog is about my journey to getting what I want. So I'm just gonna keep writing. I'm going to try and not edit myself too much and I hope that's fine with you.
OKAY SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED! I was in the process of previewing this, to post and my husband said, "you know that house you we looked at?" I was all, "You mean the one that is perfect in every way? Accept it's too expensive?" and he was all , "Yep" and I was all, "what about it?" and he said, "they dropped the price by $80,000" and I was "WHAT?" That doesn't happen! It's only been on the market for like a week and a half! I must tell you, this is one of the things I've been focusing on and thinking about. I've been imagining myself in the house, having a Christmas party (I freaking love Christmas btw, you'll learn that later) and BBQ's and sitting outside on the patio writing. Having friends stay in our extra two bedrooms! I've just been daydreaming about it (which is what I'm supposed to be doing) I'm so over the moon right now. Just wanted to let you know. Thanks!
Secondly, as you can see, I changed the look of the blog, got rid of the TV, it was too confusing and I didn't want to futz around, so it's plain. Maybe someday when I get all computer savvy, I'll change it.
So yes, I woke up this morning thinking, "jeepers, why did I tell the world I'm a G.D. House Cleaner? WHY? (Okay not the world, but Jean...for now, the WORLD will be mine soon, yes you will! But don't worry WORLD, I'll take good care of you. I'll put you on my shelf and dust you once a week and give you water when you need it and I promise not too let my cat play with you. But I digress) I don't usually tell people, I'm a house cleaner. I usually say to people, "I'm a writer" or "I'm an actor" and whenever I say those two sentences i get a sick feeling in my stomach. I feel like a fraud. Why? I mean, I DO act and I DO write. I think it's because , when I hear someone say that I think "BORING another person who thinks they're an "actor" and a "writer" please spare me your silly dream".
Can one call themselves something that doesn't give them enough money to live on? After I tell a person, "I'm an actor/writer" I get, "so how do you make your money?" I usually scream, "Someone is behind you with a knife and they look like they mean business!" and when they turn around, I'm gone. When that fails, then I have to confess, "Um I have a house cleaning business" HA! "House cleaning business" what a load of crap. Seriously Julie? "business", I only say that too make myself sound more, what, important? HA!!! Important. Yes, I'm a high class cleaner, I use only green products and I'm almost fluent in English. I'm such an assh#$%le. I scrub peoples floors for money! I don't carry a brief case, I carry a mop. Yep. Whatevs. Well not no more, right? because that's what this blog is about, me changing all that? Me not cleaning anymore, but doing only what makes me feel good, right?
In Law of Attraction (L.O.A.) they say, "pay attention to your feelings". I am and right now I feel like poo. I'm all insecure about this blog and revealing too much of my stupid life (You'll forgive me, I'm trying not to swear. I'm a swearer, a bad swearer and I made a commitment to not swear in my blog). LOA says's "don't live in reality". That's wicked freaking hard, yo. So I want to be honest with ya'll, but I'm struggling with being honest and still trying to not live in reality. But this blog is about my journey to getting what I want. So I'm just gonna keep writing. I'm going to try and not edit myself too much and I hope that's fine with you.
OKAY SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED! I was in the process of previewing this, to post and my husband said, "you know that house you we looked at?" I was all, "You mean the one that is perfect in every way? Accept it's too expensive?" and he was all , "Yep" and I was all, "what about it?" and he said, "they dropped the price by $80,000" and I was "WHAT?" That doesn't happen! It's only been on the market for like a week and a half! I must tell you, this is one of the things I've been focusing on and thinking about. I've been imagining myself in the house, having a Christmas party (I freaking love Christmas btw, you'll learn that later) and BBQ's and sitting outside on the patio writing. Having friends stay in our extra two bedrooms! I've just been daydreaming about it (which is what I'm supposed to be doing) I'm so over the moon right now. Just wanted to let you know. Thanks!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
My First Blog Post
Phew, I'm exhausted! Trying decide what my blog page should look like; what should the background look like? Not too feminine, not too corny, not too bright. I want it to be whimsical, but not silly. Then, What kind of font? What Template should I use? I liked the T.V. although I fear it makes reading kind of hard and is it too much going on? I usually need things to be simple, and clean. Not too confusing, know what I mean? But again, I like the T.V. image. It appeals to me, especially the sort of vintage aspect of it. I like vintage. Don't know why, but I do. I have a closet full of vintage dresses from the 50's and 60's. Maybe I'll change it (the page), let's see how it feels. Speaking of "how it feels" this brings me to why I started this blog.
What is my blog all about? It's about my Year Of Living Joyously. I've decided to start living my life in the most joyous way possible. What does that mean to me? It means quitting my sucky ass job as a house cleaner. Yep. I clean houses for rich people, okay they're not all rich and frankly I like all the people I clean for. That was the first step in my decision to live joyously. Get rid of all clients I don't like. Actually it's not even that I don't like them, but I don't like the energy in their place, or it's too far to drive or whatever. Now I only clean places where I feel good, okay not "good" so much as better. So full disclosure, I haven't quit my job yet. I'm giving myself to the end of the summer. I'm also an actor, but I haven't been pursuing that so much. I'm afraid to look for an agent ("I'm too old", "I don't have anything unique to offer", etc) So this is one of the things I want to change in my year of living joyously.
My husband asks, how will you make money? "Well", I say, "I'm going to vibrate my way into more money". He rolls his eyes and walks away. How does one "vibrate" their way into more money? Um, good question. I've been doing much reading of many books about the subject of attracting what one wants and basically how I've interpreted it is, that one just needs to THINK about having more money, but while I'm thinking about it, I must feel good. Feeling good is the key. Thus the whole "joy" part. I cannot feel, 'the lack of'' money, I need to still feel abundant. So when I think about acquiring money I think, "well I have enough, I always have enough but I want more and the way I will make more is by doing something I love". What do I love? I love eating. But that's not how I want to make money. I also love sleeping. But that's not how I want to make my money. I want to make money, acting and even more than that I want to make money, lots of money, writing. Specifically writing for television and film. I've written many things for the stage, but now I want to write for a different medium, one that pays, yo.
I've have three completed screenplays. But who the hell hasn't? It's freaking L.A. for Pete's sake! People poop out scripts here! Oops, see? Now that's the kind of thing I need to work on in my Y.O.L.J.. I've written in the past few years, 2 comedies and 1 drama (which won an award for Best Drama in a the Story Pros screen writers contest). So here is my commitment to myself and you and the reason I started blogging and as soon as I learn how to use my camera I'm going to film myself doing joyful things, like going to the beach, hiking, going to a museum or the movies, hanging out with my friends, going to classes, to wine tastings basically having a good time NOT working. I will NOT worry about money. By doing all this I believe everything that I want will come.
By the end of my year of living joyously I will have sold a screenplay(s) , gotten cast in various projects and will have a new home and one million dollars in my bank account. That is what I want to vibrate into my life.
The books I'm reading and following the tenents as described in them are The Law Of Attraction, By Jerry & Esther Hicks (I'd recommend all books by them) & Think & Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.
Until next time.
Julie Perkins
thelandofperkistan.com
P.S. please feel free to comment. But nice & supportive things only please! If you think all this Law Of Attraction stuff is crap, I honor that. But please honor that I'm trying something out here and I only want positive re-enforcement. Thank you all.
What is my blog all about? It's about my Year Of Living Joyously. I've decided to start living my life in the most joyous way possible. What does that mean to me? It means quitting my sucky ass job as a house cleaner. Yep. I clean houses for rich people, okay they're not all rich and frankly I like all the people I clean for. That was the first step in my decision to live joyously. Get rid of all clients I don't like. Actually it's not even that I don't like them, but I don't like the energy in their place, or it's too far to drive or whatever. Now I only clean places where I feel good, okay not "good" so much as better. So full disclosure, I haven't quit my job yet. I'm giving myself to the end of the summer. I'm also an actor, but I haven't been pursuing that so much. I'm afraid to look for an agent ("I'm too old", "I don't have anything unique to offer", etc) So this is one of the things I want to change in my year of living joyously.
My husband asks, how will you make money? "Well", I say, "I'm going to vibrate my way into more money". He rolls his eyes and walks away. How does one "vibrate" their way into more money? Um, good question. I've been doing much reading of many books about the subject of attracting what one wants and basically how I've interpreted it is, that one just needs to THINK about having more money, but while I'm thinking about it, I must feel good. Feeling good is the key. Thus the whole "joy" part. I cannot feel, 'the lack of'' money, I need to still feel abundant. So when I think about acquiring money I think, "well I have enough, I always have enough but I want more and the way I will make more is by doing something I love". What do I love? I love eating. But that's not how I want to make money. I also love sleeping. But that's not how I want to make my money. I want to make money, acting and even more than that I want to make money, lots of money, writing. Specifically writing for television and film. I've written many things for the stage, but now I want to write for a different medium, one that pays, yo.
I've have three completed screenplays. But who the hell hasn't? It's freaking L.A. for Pete's sake! People poop out scripts here! Oops, see? Now that's the kind of thing I need to work on in my Y.O.L.J.. I've written in the past few years, 2 comedies and 1 drama (which won an award for Best Drama in a the Story Pros screen writers contest). So here is my commitment to myself and you and the reason I started blogging and as soon as I learn how to use my camera I'm going to film myself doing joyful things, like going to the beach, hiking, going to a museum or the movies, hanging out with my friends, going to classes, to wine tastings basically having a good time NOT working. I will NOT worry about money. By doing all this I believe everything that I want will come.
By the end of my year of living joyously I will have sold a screenplay(s) , gotten cast in various projects and will have a new home and one million dollars in my bank account. That is what I want to vibrate into my life.
The books I'm reading and following the tenents as described in them are The Law Of Attraction, By Jerry & Esther Hicks (I'd recommend all books by them) & Think & Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.
Until next time.
Julie Perkins
thelandofperkistan.com
P.S. please feel free to comment. But nice & supportive things only please! If you think all this Law Of Attraction stuff is crap, I honor that. But please honor that I'm trying something out here and I only want positive re-enforcement. Thank you all.
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